Archive for September, 2012

September 10, 2012

Breaking Rhythm

Hello all,

Long time, no post.

No Excuses, only explanations.

The main reason that I fell of the blogging wagon was that I broke my rhythm. I was blogging most of the way till June, then the school year was over.

At the end of the school year, I had some time for vacation. At the end of June we had a fantastic camping adventure in the state of New Mexico. A few weeks later, we had another funtastic family trip camping and Leo Carrillo State Beach.

Since I work for a school district, I have about a month of “free time” per year. One would think that someone with more free time would have more free time to write. However, writing no longer fit into my rhythm. When I was camping with my family, I was fully engaged with them and I did not feel it was appropriate to try to find wifi in some remote location to feed my blogging habit. When I got back from camping, I choose either to surf with my friends or spend time with my children. Blogging just did not fit into my summer rhythm.

I have no regrets for fully enjoying my summer. At this point, I acknowledge that my blogging habit was an essential habit for me to learn from my daily life lessons. I have been back at work for more than a month and I have found myself slagging into my dreaded old rhythm of complaining about life circumstances. Over the last 6 weeks, our family has experienced many set backs with regards to external events involving healthcare, unforeseen financial obligations and dealing with people with a less than ethical nature. I will not go into details in this blog since I have tirelessly told these stories over and over again to the people around me. I have realized that spewing “my tails of woe” have lead to little social benefit or significant problem solving. The only thing that sharing the details of my perceived injustice has been to reinforce my chosen responses of getting angry, resentful or even a little depressed.

Tonight, I found myself reeling from a snarky comment in a work-related e-mail. I realized that I have to change my rhythm. It does me no good to collect stories of misdeeds. It only does me good to collect and reflect on the things that are going well in my life.

Tonight, I will close with a list of some of the many things that I am grateful for:

  1. My family is safe and secure
  2. My wife is awesome, creative, supporting, loving, kind and generous
  3. My children both have huge hearts and have taught me a great deal about being loving
  4. I love my home and my home is safe
  5. We have the ability to spend time with our children
  6. Our extended family is always willing to be supportive
  7. We all have friends that love and support us
  8. I have a lovely back yard that my children have fun playing in
  9. Although my 2 sons are close in age, they are great loving brothers and they rarely fight
  10. We are able to have sufficient food on the table on a nightly basis
  11. We have enough money to buy gas for our cars
  12. We have the luxuries of having a TV and more than one computer
  13. We live near the beach and we are able to frequently enjoy going there
  14. Our children have enough toys, books and games
  15. I have a job that I enjoy
  16. My wife does excellent work for our community
  17. My wife is a fabulous artist who has helped create a beautiful home for us
  18. We have cars
  19. We have phones
  20. We have the ability to spend time with our children

I know that I could keep going on.

I also know that this may be the roughest writing that I have produced in a while.

For tonight, I do not see the value in perfection

Tonight, I see the value in gratitude!

Here is to moving forward to a rhythm of hope, forgiveness, generosity, understanding, patience, perspective and love!

All the best,

Andrew